Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Shopping and praying!
As you know, Mindy is getting married in August. Not that I am in any hurry to buy a MOM dress, but I was looking the other day. I was with a friend and she insisted that I try one on. Well, one lead to another and another. It was so not fun. I was in the dressing room in my mis-matched underwear and unshaven white legs. I had calf length white socks and chub rolls everywhere. That is when my cell phone rang. It was my son. I answered it. He was telling me a very long story. All the while I was standing there with mirrors everywhere. It was the ugliest sight. Needless to say I did not buy a dress that day. I did decide tho, that tan fat looks slightly better than just plain white fat. So on Monday I went to the tanning bed. I started out at only five minutes:) What I did find out is that in those 5 minutes it is so bright and warm and peaceful. It is the perfect time to talk to Jay. I tell him how very much I miss him and need him here. Then I talk to God. I ask Him to never leave me. I need strength. I need courage. I need to face each days new challenges with confidence. I ask him to protect us and guide us. And help us to do all these things with a smile on our face. The last thing we need is a crabby mom helping us move forward. It's weird how much can be said in 5 minutes. But with tears running down my face and a smile, I come out of there knowing that I can get thru this day and all the days to come.